Rachel Leviss Reveals Shocking 'Slip-Up' Tom Sandoval Made as She Struggled with 'Shame' of Recorded Intimate Video

"I remember telling him on the phone after processing it, 'I don’t think that I will be able to forgive you for this. And then, you know, a week later, he's trying to get me to hire his lawyer and fire my lawyer," Leviss alleged of Sandoval

Rachel "Raquel" Leviss is still dealing with the ramifications of her and Tom Sandoval’s cheating scandal a year later.

On Sunday’s episode of her Rachel Goes Rogue podcast on iHeartRadio, the former Vanderpump Rules star, 29, opened up about a variety of topics — including trying to come to terms with the fact that Sandoval, 40, allegedly recorded her without consent during an intimate FaceTime call, and how he violated her personal boundaries by doing so. Leviss has filed a lawsuit against Sandoval and his ex Ariana Madix in connection with this alleged video.

PEOPLE has reached out to Sandoval's rep for comment.

“It took me a while to process Tom recording me without me knowing,” Leviss admitted during the episode, adding that the situation “was so chaotic.”

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The former Bravo star said she considered herself to be in “survival mode” at the time and unable to process what was happening.

“It wasn’t until I had my one-on-one trauma therapy session in The Meadows that I was able to really start decompressing what he did and how he violated a personal boundary," she said, referencing the mental health facility she stayed in the months following Scandoval, where she sought voluntary treatment.

"I remember telling him on the phone after processing it, 'I don’t think that I will be able to forgive you for this,'" Leviss recalled. "And then, you know, a week later, he's trying to get me to hire his lawyer and fire my lawyer."

“He had a slip-up and he said, 'The last thing that we need you to do right now is go rogue,'" she claimed of their interaction, which seemingly inspired the title of her podcast.

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The reality star joked that she’d even had fantasies where she would call the musician and use his words against him.

"I did art therapy, and I painted out that in conversation and I had this fantasy of calling him and being like, 'I've gone rogue' and just hang up the phone and kind of like, do that power move," she said. "And my therapist was like, 'Well, well, we're not gonna do that.'"

Later in the podcast, Leviss discussed the intimate recording that Sandoval allegedly recorded without her permission.

“How he took that video without my consent was out of my control, and there was nothing that I could do in that moment," Leviss claimed. "But then I also think back, like, 'Well, I shouldn’t have been doing anything with him anyway.' So then it's a piece of self accountability, and forgiving myself for that."

"Ultimately, that's the place where there's so much shame and it yields pain, obviously, with a violation," she explained. "But mostly shame ... it's a private thing you don't want people to know about first of all, and then second of all, it's just an intimate moment."

Related: VPR's Rachel 'Raquel' Leviss Suing Tom Sandoval, Ariana Madix Over Claims of 'Revenge Porn', Impact of Scandoval

Leviss and Sandoval inspired the term "Scandoval" in March 2023 when the two costars were exposed for having a months-long affair. At the time, Sandoval had been in a nine-year relationship with Madix, Leviss’ costar and friend.

Madix, 38, found out about the affair when she discovered the intimate FaceTime recording. The video in question was "a FaceTime call between Tom and Raquel. It had been screen-recorded by Tom. When Ariana found it on Tom's phone, she recorded it and sent [it] to herself," a source told PEOPLE at the time.

This resulted in multiple cast members seeing the content, and Leviss’ attorney sending out letters to her costars saying the video was recorded "illegally" and "without the permission" of Leviss.

Anyone in possession of the footage was asked to delete it from their phones, the cloud or "any other manner or method in which the recording may exist," per her attorney.

In February, Leviss sued Sandoval and Madix, taking her former Bravo costars to court on allegations of eavesdropping, revenge porn and invasion of privacy. According to the complaint, Leviss alleged that she was a "victim of the predatory and dishonest behavior of an older man" who filmed sexually explicit videos "without her knowledge or consent." She further claimed that the recordings were "distributed, disseminated, and discussed publicly by a scorned woman [Madix] seeking vengeance."

She said the events led her to seek help in a facility while "Bravo, Evolution, and the cast milked the interest her excoriation had peaked. Leviss — whose departure from Vanderpump Rules was confirmed in August 2023 — also claimed she "suffered in silence" as a result of the fallout while other parties involved with Scandoval reaped "unseen levels of public recognition and professional opportunity."

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